Autism Unveiled: Mandy: Mother, Artist, Writer, and #Aspie

Autism Unveiled Week 3

I am a mom,
but parenting once became my “special interest” and I started taking what I read on the topic way too literally.

I am a wife,
but my constant need to know why makes my husband not want to talk to me.

I am an artist,
but I worry about making a mess and having no where to put my stuff and not creating art that looks perfect so I give up, and that’s if I even let myself try in the first place.

I am a friend,
but I am always scared that everyone will eventually dump me, a self-fulfilling prophecy, some say.

I am a writer,
but I freak out over an increase in attendance at my writer’s group and stop making as much of an effort to attend.

I am a late thirty-something,
but my youthful looks and the way I dress keep people from taking me seriously.

I am a college graduate,
but my poor social skills and inability to cope hinder my ability to have a career.

I am a Christian,
but my tendency to be a skeptic makes it hard for me to get along with other believers.

I am an actor,
but I find it impossible to pretend to like a person I can’t stand when I’m not on the stage.

I am a woman,
but fashion, makeup, and typical “girl talk” elude and confuse me.

I am an introverted extrovert,
but don’t even try to predict my behavior.

I am smart, funny, responsible, passionate, capable, dependable, talented, and selfless,
but the fact that I’m weird and awkward leaves me misunderstood, judged, and disliked.

I am an aspie.