We understand when people are distressed. I can smell the endorphins.
By John Testore
I suffer for others and I’m always misunderstood for that.
People think I want to always be in control.
In fact it is my way of prioritizing. I know I’m good at prioritizing.
I don’t like acting on instinct. If I know I can do something on a better time, I prefer to wait. Like going to a concert…. people would get mad at me! In turn I get mad. And so my neighbors get madder at my madness! Vicious circle.
I want to be left alone when panicking. People would scold at me more instead!
All autistics know the situation all too well I know…
We want to protect you! Don’t counterattack and we’ll cool in few minutes!
We understand when people are distressed.
I can smell the endorphins.
That will result in rocking and mourning on my side requiring undue sedation.
Add a nurse as a wife and you’ll have the full picture…
My takeaway is henceforth consequential: Respect Autistic Boundaries.
Our boundaries are different. In fact I wouldn’t talk of boundaries but triggers.
I’m an extremely calm, patient, sociable, altruistic person. Only a handful of triggers can cause me to dissociate, like impulsiveness, lack of planning or change in routine.
I can adjust with time and understanding.
My name is John Testore and I m a British-Italian man married to a Japanese lady in Japan. I m a former Medical student.
I was diagnosed with Autism and ADHD in Med-school causing me to drop after my third year and join the Ambulance Service as paramedic.